Word: Diffident (dih fih dint) :::adj:::meaning:::lacking self-confidence:::
Song: "Get Me Home," by Foxy Brown
Beaux Tip: Wash your make-up brushes once a week with a tad bit of shampoo and conditioner and allow them to air dry. This will decrease shedding and also keep your brushes in optimum condition.
Shoe:"Divine Printed Pony Sandals" Designed for Jimmy Choo, Fall 2008 Collection $895
Word: Axiom (aak see uhm) :::noun:::meaning:::self-evident truth:::
Song: "She Lives In My Lap," by Andre 3000
Beaux Tip: When applying both eyeliner and brow color, use a damp angled brush with a powder eye shadow instead of a pencil. Your eye line will come out quite smoothly and your brows will look more natural. I do not use pencils in my make-up art.
Shoe: "Pointy Toe Flat Skimmer" Designed for Chloé, Fall 2008 Collection $490
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Place: Ritz Carlton, San Francisco Had drinks and hors d'oeuvres earlier this week with my Aunt Absolutely stunning, enough said.
Word: Garrulous (gaar uh luhs) (gaar yuh luhs) :::adj:::meaning:::tending to talk a lot:::
Song: "Zoom," by the Commodores
Beaux Tip: after washing your face at night, apply a generous amount of Vaseline to your eyelids between your eyebrows and eyelashes, it acts a great conditioner for your eyelids.
Shoe: "Babouska Studded Bootie," designed for Gucci, Fall 2008 Collection $995
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Place: césar - tapas, wine, beer & spirits: a fabulous place for delicious paella, drinks and tapas. drink the: house-made lemon-mint soda eat the: paella césar (chorizo, clams, mussels, chicken & shrimp with peas & piquillos in a lobster broth) http://www.barcesar.com/
Took a brief hiatus. Business plans in the making, bar construction, restaurant accounting papers strewn out across the condo, revelations of the authentic, dismissal of the regular, party planning, vacationing to Vegas, allthewhile, truly defining herself.
Prior to her intermission, she began to grow a bit restless, rather exhausted by the mundane formalities of daily life, so she decided to add 2 teaspoons of seasoning salt, 7 sprinkles of cayenne pepper and an undisclosed amount of my special "house" seasoning.
Now She's back. Thank you for sticking around, thank you for allowing her to locate herself amidst the chaotic medley of heartbeats.
A loved one shared something valuable with me that I would like to pass on to you in this introduction of her return. There comes a time in life when we are allowed a choice, we can either numb our talents and settle for what pays the bills, what keeps us constant, keeps us regular; Or we can walk to a cliff and jump.
Please allow me to explain. Following your dreams is not easy, it is incredibly challenging, and especially if we aren't even clear on what our dreams truly consist of. Some people have obvious passions that they pursue, but the majority of folks are in search of themselves, with no google maps, map quest or GPS capability.
This is not encouraging you to end your life altogether, but it is an encouragement for you to let go of the life that doesn't exhibit your talents and contributions to the world, and begin a new life where you will be joined by other equally motivated and free spirits, away from the poisonous feelings of insecurity, jealously and fear. Once you reach this level of knowing yourself, you will be invincible, and like Kanye and Jeezy once chanted, you will also. . .
I do realize that a lot of people have responsibilities, financial, family, et cetera. . .but don't allow these obligations exist as excuses for why you cannot progress. You may not be able to quit your job immediately, and you may loathe the concept of 1/3 of your day being frozen by anti-creative forces, but that doesn't mean that you cannot construct a game plan for yourself with goals, dates, and plans of action. It is all about self motivation, and only YOU can motivate yourself.
During this process you will feel as though you are losing a grasp, that's when you jump, and moments thereafter the climax, the resolution presents itself. . .
last night was a spectacular night, but I didn't do anything too much out of the ordinary. caught up on some writing, did some packing for my move this coming weekend and chilled with ashley. we started discussing many topics, as we always do, covering lots of ground, incorporating lots of detail, digging beyond the actual occurrences, extracting symbols, signs and meanings, but this is all quite customary for us, this is how we communicate. there are a select few people in which I can converse with at this level (besides myself) and for these people, I am thankful, anyhow. . .
last night was a spectacular night, because I solved an open case file. we will all come to a certain point in life, which I refer to as a "low point." during this time, we fraternize with people we normally wouldn't offer the time of day, we act in ways that are inexplicable, we dig holes for ourselves and we fall into these deep, dark holes with seemingly permanent lasting effects. this is perfectly normal human behavior, I have not been close with a person yet who has not reached a low point. the thing about these "low points," is that during and thereafter we are usually stuck questioning ourselves and attempting to solve the equation that placed us in our holes. questions. . .confusion. . .leaving the case open, unsolved, hammering at our heads. it becomes a constant topic of ardent discussion, passionate details are repeatedly shared. . .all because, it puzzles us to a point in which we cannot shake it, it thus, becomes part of our identities.
last night was a spectacular night, because somewhere around 3:17am, I sat up and stared into the darkness as though I was being summoned by my soul, and in that moment, the case was closed, my low point was explained. I was forced to look into the now, the exactness of the moment my head rose from my pillow in order to truly, truly, truly recognize the pure bliss of life, the finer emotions, the authenticity of love. i realized that we must experience a low point, as a source of contrast. if there was no such thing as horrible, there would be no such thing as wonderful. i then began to think of all of my friends who i have seen hit the low point and i became convinced that their contrasts would soon be presented, as mine revealed itself 2.5 years later. do not go out and search for your contrast, it will come in its due time, but remain open to its presence.
Caramel kisses from a vanilla sushine, there is a complex simplicity clouding our coffee. It forces us to reflect and then reject and then accept one another, where is the loyalty? truth? allegiance? People are pretending on a daily basis to be this and be that, projecting images, filling voids, dismissing truths, breaking hearts with lies, carefree undertones, listless demeanors...those people from Mars in my dream last night moved like honey gliding to the bottom of a cup of steamy green tea...settling at the bottom and capturing the flavor...taking their land back...teaching us a lesson on how to love, how to truly exist among each other, thus. . .how to love.
the star that shined in the sky so bright the other night was no star...it was their spaceship...when i saw him, i wasn't afriad...i called out to him " Excuse me, Mr. UFO Man, we need help, we are drowning, we are killing each other, and to think...they are afraid of you!" he just looked at me and his glossy eyes twinkled like glitter...i was in his zone...and at that exact moment, i knew...i was found...i was whole...I am...foundtranscendentsublimenotvainnotdumbnolongeranythingihadpreviouslybeen...I am real...really alive.
I wish that there was a way for every living, breathing being to reach this point. . .I can start with writing this blog, hoping that people can reflect on their days in the past and anticipate their days to come. Think about the interactions that you have with people, how you talk to them, the tone you project, the things that you don't say, the way you look at them. . .consider what they are feeling inside, what they dreamed about the previous night. Consider the last time they cried themselves to sleep, the last time they laughed so hard that their tummy muscles got a work out; each person is precious, and each person deserves the utmost consideration and respect, despite the exterior armor that they display.
I work a couple jobs that require customer service, I developed some ideas awhile back when dealing with a rather unpleasant person; when it occurred to me that my automatic response to combat her stankness with more stankness would not solve the problem, I began to attempt to put myself in her shoes by only imagining what the source of her attitude may be. I am in no way excusing people with unpleasant overtones, but instead hoping that we can address the source of the problem. Whether it is a person whom we are close with or a complete stranger, offering a person the utmost of esteem may brighten his or her day.
I have her undivided attention. I'm prancing around in my retro leopard leggings, my green tutu and a yellow cotton bra dancing to the beat, flowing to the rhythm. I purposely miss a count or two, simply to amuse her. . .and also to assure her that this body only moves in tune to one melody, hers.
I can feel her fingertips caress my scalp, her manicured hands writing invisible lyrics behind my ear. Only I can hear them clearly, only me. The words are complex, hard to follow, but intoxicating and addicting. . .she never stops writing, especially because I let her use my golden pen. When she writes, I leave her be, simply offering my expression of adoration. A glance here and there.
I look to the stars while she works, communication at it's prime. At 6:11 it occurred to me that there is no greater love, sólo nosotros, hay dos.
